On Psalm 40

I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to God. Many will see what He has done and be astounded. They will put their trust in the Lord. Oh, the joys of those who trust the Lord, who have no confidence in the proud, or in those who worship idols. O Lord my God, you have done many miracles for us. Your plans for us are too numerous to list. If I tried to recite your numerous deeds, I would never come to the end of them. (Psalm 40:1-5)

I find that it is impossible to stay in a real bad mood if you spend time each day thinking about what God has done for us. If we were to try to do it, we wouldn't be able to do anything else. I look at this verse and it reminds me of where I was, especially as a teenager. I would never want to back there again. I worried and despaired too much over what people thought, and tried desperately to seek the approval of men. I looked for something that they weren't able to give me, that only God could give. Once I realized this, I noticed God's work in my life even more, and then He brought Andy to me, which was even more of a stabilizing force for me, and helped pull me out of the self-loathing and depression that I had been stuck in. So I praise God for what He has done, and what He is continuing to do in my life. I want my life to be a living witness for other people, and as the Psalmist says,  I hope that those who witness my life will put their trust in the Lord.