We prayed for Ash and Alicia today as they get ready to go out to Wisconsin for a mentoring program within the Advent Christian Conference. I'm so glad to see God's plan coming to fruition in their lives, and I see how excited they are for this new experience.

However, I have my struggles. First, I'm struggling with the obvious struggle of letting go. I'm very close to my family and I do hate to see them leave, even though there is Skype and Facebook and the old-fashioned telephone. It's not just that I love my family but I actually like my family--there is a difference between loving someone and liking somebody, and there's nobody else I'd rather spend time with in the world than my family.

Another struggle I'm having, though, is much deeper. I see them with a clear call from God to go out, and I wonder what my call is. I'm worried that God is calling me to stay in my job at the airport for the rest of my life, because I really don't like this job. I'm trying to change my attitude towards it, but I feel like I'm stagnating. I'm wondering why I haven't found anything else for work yet, and the situation seems worse than it is. I'm trying to have faith, but it is disappearing. I just need help hanging in there, and I know this isn't a very joyful post, but I need to get these thoughts out. Maybe tomorrow it will look better.